03.05.2003 - 12:43 am
In my speech class the other evening, we were discussing how some people try to control other people through speech. Control how they act, how they dress, what they think, what they eat, what they like.
The last time Geoff was up, we were standing in the elevator on our way to Miyazaki Night at AnimEKU.
"Do you have your shirt tucked in?" I asked.
"Yeah."
"Why the hell do you do that?"
"I dunno."
"Well untuck it, it looks stupid."
I'm human enough to recognize my shortcomings.
It reminds me of the last time I talked to my friend James. He had bleached his hair stark blond (him being a naturally dark haired guy) and I just thought it looked terribly dumb. And I told him so. And I added a few other choice words.
"You act like I should be ashamed of myself, of who I am and my body. Like I'm not good enough. I'm not ashamed just because you might be."
So I have to stop and wonder now about how insecure I really must be to feel absolute revulsion sometimes at the things the people I love do. Or how I can feel that some of the things that they say or do are nothing but grating nails on the blackboard of my social conciousness and good taste.
Is it human nature to feel embarassed and try to control?
I'm way too blunt for my own good.
~Amanda~
